I wanted to breathe smoke.

When I woke this morning I was bitterness personified. I checked the clock, it was a little after 10am. I needed to blow off some steam, big time.

I wanted to hit the gym before somebody got hurt.

When I’m angry the stereo doesn’t get loud enough, the car doesn’t go fast enough – it’s all against me, and I’m no good in a fight.

I thought about what the world is, what’s wrong with it, what’s wrong with me, why we are the way we are. I asked myself, “Am I getting depressed again?”

I say “again”, because we all do, and we all get in funks that we can’t seem to get out of. However, I would have to say that it’s the things I can’t control that get me down.

I don’t feel down. Things are gonna change, I can feel it, I said to myself.

So I ran 1.5 miles, did 80 crunches, and called it a day.

Later, things got really good, but I’ve been asked to keep things hush hush until Thursday, so I’ll keep it at that.

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3 Responses to I wanted to breathe smoke.

  1. sukie80 says:

    I think working out helps you release tons of tension. I need that right now. . .

  2. Antigone says:

    Plus, working out makes you feel stronger. Like you can handle the crap in life better somehow. It does for me, at least.

  3. Meryl says:

    Also, exercising gets rid of cortisol which is the hormone that is produced in your body when you get stressed. It produces a fight or flight reaction which slows your metabolism down. So exercising gets rid of that, and gets your metabolism back up. (The only other way to get rid of Cortisol is by crying. it comes out in your tears.)

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